Things Return

It's been a very very long time, months if not say years, until I start writing again...

I have been feeling stretched out a lot lately... feel like lost touch with myself. It's been a long journey to chase what I thought is what I need, to make all my decisions right. How long since last time I have some serious conversations with someone trust?

I just know this gonna be messy and not structural at all.. but it's okay as I intended for it to go with the flow... So it's been one year and 4 months since I left France on November 13, 2023 to be in this old but somehow new city... I know its not about the place, the people or the weather since I have been to a lot of places and it's always the same... you have to deal with people and nasty systems somehow and they everywhere... To my understanding and as I trust my feelings, it is the very new journey that I sparkle on... all the new things... and nothing feels familiar at all... all the decisions that I have to make without having enough knowledge or experience on... all the risks... and the cost coming with it... would it be right or wrong... would it be right but not the best... would it be wrong but the not the worst? thousands of questions in my mind... and no one to ask... or no time to ask

But I know one thing for sure that I did the right thing by following my heart... To chase the uneasy path that everyone scare of... what would it take of me to become who I want to become?